March 21, 2018 § Leave a comment
I guess when I meet people for the first I try to give the impression of being a successful young lady. Truthfully it is almost all a façade – smoke and mirrors as the phrase goes. Financially, I manage to scrape by. I always make sure I am well-groomed and this is through years of practice in using minimal resources that aren’t costly. I’ve also made it a practice to buy clothes from thrift stores which I restore or repair to the best of my abilities. In my career as a performer and artist, but in particular as a model; a lot of photographers, designers… and basically anybody in that industry have often given me the impression that my time and efforts are not as important as theirs. I am an artist and I have for as long as I can remember, thanked my stars that I am given the opportunity to work creatively even if I am paid less that minimum or simply given time to collaborate with another artist. I never want to be one of those to complain or seem ungrateful but I am now going to admit personally I often question my self-worth because of how the industry really treats its models or if you ask to be paid adequately for your time. One is expected to perform well and always be presentable on a very strict income. I often feel like a puppet that will be tossed away if my strings become tangled; and I spend almost every night of my life untangling my strings to survive the next day.
I think a lot of models feel a similar way too and I think it is very damaging for the human soul. I am not naïve to the struggles photographers and other artists/industry people go through, it’s a tough industry but we are all artists and we all strive to make a living. Just… if we could treat each other with a little more genteel…
On a different note below is a video with clips from the House Of Burlesque’s, Havana Night which I performed in.
And if you haven’t already seen my website you can see it at http://www.NicoleMelrose.com